Still No Baby

Probably 95% of the people I have had conversations with about when Trenton will come have all said something to the effect of, "Oh, you won't make it to 40 weeks and definitely not longer. I'd be surprised if you made it 38 weeks." Well......yesterday marked 38 weeks and guess what? I'm still pregnant : / Up until Saturday there wasn't any signs that my body was even remotely close to going into labor, so I knew there wasn't going to be any baby when I not-so-secretly wanted him to be born (the 7th). But at least pretty much all afternoon Sunday and all day Monday I've had contractions virtually the entire day. Even though they are just Braxton Hicks, at least something is going on to give me a little hope that I won't actually be pregnant forever like it was feeling when absolutely nothing was going on with my body. But I know Trenton will come when he is good and ready; I'm just hoping it's sooner rather than later. Every day I keep hoping that I won't be going back to work for three months, but everyday I find myself sitting at my desk working (most of the time pretending, actually)......

Joseph and I set up a poll on Facebook and had people place bets for when they think Trenton will be born and we decided that we would send whoever guessed right a gift card of their choice. Just because we always like "friendly" competition :) So far only my mom is out....she was rooting with me for the 7th but that obviously didn't happen.....It is kind of fun to see the days pass and see who is wrong though.

It's funny because even though I have had a very easy pregnancy, it is definitely true that by the 8th and 9th month, you really do just get tired of being pregnant. It's not like I'm completely miserable or in a terrible amount of pain and discomfort, it's just that 10 months is a long time to be pregnant and it just gets old.....I keep telling Joseph that I really just want my body back and I don't want to share anymore; and I've tired of having to go to the restroom every 20 minutes, and struggling to get out of bed every couple hours for the same reason, or attempting to change positions while also attempting to get some good sleep because of all the pressure on my joints and insides. But really, most of that will continue once Trenton is born. I definitely won't be getting any sleep; but at least Joseph will "get" to share that one with me. And he is just so excited, I can tell.....

My 38 week check up was way more productive and satisfying than my 37 week check up. I met with one of the male OBs, and even though I have had anxiety about having a male OB when I go into labor, I can honestly say that I wouldn't mind having him. He actually cared about me, unlike last week's doctor. And I surprisingly felt pretty comfortable with him, even when he did check to see if I was dilated (which I wasn't. Maybe 1 cm he said). I talked to him about getting pitocin after I deliver and how I really don't want it unless it is absolutely necessary, and at first he said everyone gets it as a precautionary measure, but after he saw the concerned and unhappy look on my face, we got to talking a bit more about it and we compromised on the decision that we will get through the delivery and see how that goes, then make a decision on the pitocin. I was very satisfied with that answer. Because I know that there is a possibility that I actually will need it if I'm bleeding too much or may even end up wanting it, but right now I don't want it and appreciate that he respected my desires pre-baby.

Pretty much now we are just waiting and waiting to see when Trenton will decide he wants to be born. For such an OCD - plan every detail of every event down to the minute-type person as me, I don't do very well with not knowing when something is going to happen. I like planning WAY too much for all this unknown waiting game.... :)