New Year's Eve I was 37 weeks exactly, which means Trenton is officially full term and could come any day and he would be fine. So even though it wasn't likely, I was secretly hoping he would decide to be born New Year's Eve. My main reason though? To claim him on our 2012 taxes :) Good enough reasoning, right?? Trenton wasn't on the same page as me though unfortunately. I'm still pregnant. :| I do wish that I have had more Braxton Hicks contractions during this pregnancy so it would be easier to prepare my mind for the real thing, but I really haven't had too many. Although his "little" jabs and pushes are so strong that they feel like some of the contractions I have had....he's one strong little baby.
New Year's was pretty uneventful for us. Joseph and I came to the conclusion that we really don't care that much about all the hype of New Year's Eve and such. It's really just another day. I even went to sleep around 9:45-10pm :) though I did wake up from a "lovely" phone call made by my husband at 11pm for me to get up and celebrate New Year's with the family.....so after drinking some delicious sparkling grape juice and Facetiming with the California family for a few minutes after midnight our time, I just went back to a glorious night's sleep. Well as glorious as it can be waking up every hour out of either pain or having to go to the bathroom.....
(just a warning; below begins a mini rampage and venting session....)
Trenton, you and I better have an easy labor and delivery because Mommy had a horrible doctor's appointment yesterday. To sum it up, I absolutely do not want and am praying that this certain doctor is not on call when I go into labor. Both times I have seen her, she never seemed like she really cared about me, the patient, and just wanted to push through as many patients as possible. And yesterday, when I wanted to go over my birth plan she was not too thrilled about it. After reading it she said I HAD to have pitocin after delivery in order to prevent hemorrhaging and there was no backing out of that. Even though I specifically said I do not want it unless it is absolutely medically necessary and I was losing too much blood. But she said it was required. The other main thing that peeved me was I had written that if the doctor said I needed a c-section, then I want a second opinion. Her response: "there is no second opinion. Whatever we say goes and if we deem it necessary due to a risk to mom or baby, then that is what will happen. you should have built up a trust with us for the past 37 weeks to where you trust our medical judgement enough to where you do not need a second opinion." I almost started crying out of anger. And when I told Joseph of the appointment he was just as angry, if not more. And after doing some research and talking with some moms on a private facebook group I'm apart of, I realized that all she said was wrong and completely against my medical rights. If I do not want and do not consent to medicine, they cannot give it to me. If I want a second opinion, I am legally allowed to have one.
Joseph is an absolutely amazing husband and will be a wonderful father though. He is already prepared and ready to stand up for me and make sure we get the care that WE want, not just what is convenient for the doctor and hospital. We had already planned on not going into the hospital until contractions are 3-4 minutes apart anyways and dealing with the majority of my labor at home (or work or wherever I happen to be at the time), but now that is definitely the plan. Joseph said he is going to be like a hawk in the delivery room to make sure no nurse tries to sneak in any medications into my IV because we know that has happened to other moms before. I also found out from one facebook mom that her doctor told her she wasn't progressing enough and she wasn't dilating enough and wanted to give her drugs for that to move along, saying she had been at 4cm. But after demanding her medical records (numerous times she said since they wouldn't give them to her at first) she read that she was actually around 7cm dilated and the doctor lied to her just to get things moving to the doctor's schedule instead of the baby's. So that is also one thing we will be on the lookout for.
Pretty much this one doctor and one doctor's appointment has turned me into a paranoid mom playing all these hospital horror stories I hear over and over again in my head. I know that Joseph will help stand up for our rights, but I am still hoping and praying that it doesn't even come to that point. I so wish we were able to switch doctors and even hospitals, but it's way to late in the game now......Next time we are definitely going with a homebirth or birthing center like we originally wanted to with this pregnancy but weren't able to do.....The stress of stupid doctors is really pissing me off....!
Ok; rant done. I know that God will keep Trenton and I safe and healthy and I am just trusting that He will provide all the necessary actions needed and wanted for a healthy baby and healthy mommy. But prayers over the next few weeks would be appreciated so we can have a happy and healthy experience with the birth of our precious son.
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