Baby 3.0 - 12 Weeks

Well little baby, last month you gave us a scare! I had an ultrasound at 7 weeks and it went well, then at 8 weeks I met with my new midwife and she told me the ultrasound showed a possible twin!! Now, while being family teachers, we are only allowed 3 kids because the job is so hectic with 8 teenagers. If we had twins, we would have four! I had to have a repeat ultrasound at 9 weeks so for a week I was freaking out about the possibility of having twins, and at the same time, the possibility of losing a baby. I know miscarriages happen and they have happened to friends of mine, and it's a terrible, devastating event in life that I wish no one would have to go through. But I never thought I would be in that unwanted club. I am the woman who has been blessed with being able to get pregnant immediately. Miscarriage is a hard thing. On one hand, if it turned out that we had twins but one died, that's really sad. We never thought we would be able to have twins; we never thought that a legitimate possibility. Then what a gift it would be if there were two viable fetuses! I mean, I've always wanted twins, sure. And how beautiful would it be to have identical twins to add to our sweet boys? But then on the other hand, our lives would change dramatically. Both of us would lose our jobs, we would lose our house, I would probably have to go back working in a corporate office while Joseph stays home with four kids. FOUR KIDS. Two newborns. I feel horrible saying this, but that's not the life that I want right now. I don't want to struggle to pay bills and not live comfortably anymore. As family teachers we have been able to pay our bills off and still be able to take vacations and live comfortably. Plus I love what we do. I don't really want to go back to the corporate world. So as you can see, it's been a huge internal battle for a week! 

But I had my follow up ultrasound on week 9 and the tech didn't see the extra clump of cells she saw two weeks ago, and still only saw one heart beat. So unfortunately we will probably never know if it was in fact a second fetus, or something else. But right now, there is only one baby. So that is what we are going with.

At our 12 week appointment as my midwife was trying to check the heartbeat, little baby was swimming and doing flips all over the place! She had such a difficult time getting the heart rate. We could hear the kicks and flips on the Doppler which was pretty neat. I just hope you cooperate when trying to get the gender! 

Toward the end of September, we decided to tell our boss. And of course it just so happened that our boss's boss came to our consultation. He has NEVER, in 3 years, come to our consultation. It was weird and of course great timing. Our boss what great and his boss told us we had to schedule an appointment with his boss to talk about us having a 3rd baby and him pretty much trying to talk us into leaving family teaching. But we have no plans on leaving this job for a really long time! Little Baby, you will also be growing up with 10 big brothers!

We also decided to tell Trenton and Tucker right before the guys got home from school and then tell the guys after dinner. Trenton and Tucker were super excited because they've been wanting a baby sister for months now. However, I told Trenton that we need to keep it a secret from the guys for a little bit. So of course, what does he do? As soon as each guy walks in the door he screams "WE'RE HAVING A BAAABBBYYYY!!!!" 😐😐

Luckily we were able to play it off since he's been saying he has a baby sister for the past 4 months so it wasn't anything new they've heard.

Once we did tell the guys, they were all so excited!! The guys leaving in December are really looking forward to coming back in May to see. 

As for me, this pregnancy has started out weird. At first I just wasn't hungry, so I wouldn't eat. Then by 6pm my blood sugar would be so low that it was difficult to even lift my arms, and I'd realize I hadn't eaten anything all day. The next phase turned into me be nauseous all the time (luckily no vomiting though! Yet.) and even the thought of food made me want to throw up. Salads seemed to be the only things that didn't make me want to hurl just by the thought. Chick fil a was the salad/wrap food of choice because 1. Chick Fil A has amazing salads, and 2. Homemade salads just weren't cutting it for me in the nausea department. So I don't know if that counts  as a craving or not, but I've given a lot of money to Chick Fil A over the past week weeks 😊 now I'm in that phase where I need to eat a small something every 45 minutes or else I'll get nauseous. I still have struggles with the thought of food, but I am able to eat a little more  of what I actually cook for dinner for everyone else. 

Since I lost a good amount of weight before getting pregnant, my "fatter" jeans still fit my growing belly and I haven't needed to buy maternity pants quite yet! Most don't button anymore, but I can still wear them, hopefully for at least a few more weeks! 

Trenton has been so sweet recently. He is always asking me to sit down so he could "cuddle the baby", and wants to hug the baby. He also says that we don't need a crib because the baby will sleep in his bed with him. Trenton is probably the sweetest big brother when it comes to babies. He absolutely loves holding other people's babies and I can't wait for him to be a big brother again. Tucker on the other hand, he talks about "baby", but he doesn't quite understand what that will mean for him. He is going to lose his baby status! We have been really working with him on his baby status which has led to a ton more tantrums, but hopefully he will figure it out 😊

Everyone is so excited for Baby 3.0! And we really cannot wait until we find out if you are a boy or a girl! Trenton will be devastated if he has another brother though. That is a non-negotiable term of agreement with him. It MUST be a girl😏